Too much

I am once again feeling overwhelemd, not the first time and I am sure not the last. I have too much, too much to do, too much to think about, too much to worry about.

Braden's latest blood work is not good. I am trying to keep upbeat, and positive and pray about it and leave it with the prayer and no longer worry, but that is easier said than done for me.

As for my paralegal work it is a double edge, on one hand very blessed because I have gotten in extra freelance work which for finances is great, but the strains it puts on my already limited time, is just crazy.

Add the holiday preperation, dealing with family issues (a brother who is about to drive me insane), and various other items and I just feel that it is too much.

But I am still smiling and offering to do anything anyone asks....ugh...why is that about me? Why can't I just say no I am sorry I am overwhelmed right now and it is not a good time for me to help you out. It sounds good, polite, but instead what comes out of me is "Sure I can do it, no problem."

So I will quit my venting, and get to work on the much too long to do list.